That ship has sailed...

These thoughts have simpy never materalized in so long. 

Brand New, snowy drives, sitting in the basement dreaming of you and me. 

"I'm burning like a bridge for your body"

Who knew where life would take us?

Different cities, friends, experiences. 

Long conversations with friends over ten minute encounters. 

Small conversations that made my heart race. Sweaty palms, trying not to talk fast, stepping out and wanting more.

Funny as it was when I had whatever I wanted, I wanted what I couldn't have.

My stupid mouth. 

How foolish I seemed, the pleading text messages. 

Turn starboard captain, this was the only conquest I never could win.

I never would have thought that you'd be where you're at, while look at me!

I've got a great job, I'm grown up, I'm different than all of the other boys, can't you see?

Enough charades, less talk, more being genuine. 

You can't go it alone. 

I can't wait until I can pry that part of our life open... Again. 

And you must know that if I can't afford the crowbar to do it, forever realize that you will be the one missing out. 

If this is college, then fail me

It wasn't that long ago, now was it? Oh wait, still my life!

Let your heart feel better.

I know that aching feeling deep down,
the one where you want everything to be like it was, forever
And when we met I felt my chest pound fast,
racing for the chance
to know you, to hold you

I've done the math, I'm less than half
We're better off together
You are not alone;
Fight those tears back,
Let your heart feel better

Now this weight holds me down
And sadly let us enjoy our last moments,
Listen to our hearts beat together
Let it make your heart feel better

The Ropes

She stares out through the pane of glass
It’s hard to see when it’s blurring
Outside the sky is clear, the sun is dying
Her boyfriend is now unknown
He’s got her best friend on the phone
His dirty clothes, or all the names he calls her
The greatest part of him is how they once were
When everything now is about him, things about her don't matter
There's nothing to be said to change that part
Except when he calls her, he resists her heart

It's 11pm on a Friday night, she's dressed to kill
Everything the boys want, the girls will admire
He's going to leave her, retire for the night
He’s got her best friend that’s just right
I smile after she comes over,
She sees me lying next to her awake, eyes half shut
But totally afraid, repenting for what
We both know is going to take place
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
Nothing you say can stop her from going home

It's a quarter to six, with words I thought I'd never speak
You pull that sheet close
The light makes our eyes weak
She’s fading, along with her hopes
Hanging on the ropes
He doesn't know anything about her

Sweating palms

Remember the times at night in the truck when the air stopped
Negative emotions, trembling motions, the roar in my ears was like an ocean
Taking this drive slow wherever we go, Summertime by the New Kids on the Block
I pull myself closer to her and begin to put this in forward motion,
I gently feel you push away, my cheeks light up like a cinder rock
You continue to smile while you resist me, it stings with a shock

I stare above her and fall back into my seat, this space is too cramped
The summer heat and the gentle beat matches the shadows on the pavement
I'll try once more, I want you, I want this now, our date is stamped
She's not just the flavor of the week, I want this girl to stay
She won't put her trust into someone that might use her
I wish I could make this girl see, I don't want her to be another blur

It's a Saturday night and she's all alone and yet I'm a million miles away . . .