Thinking Out Loud

I'm out with friends, walking around campus like always
When I see you in the same old place, you brush right past me in that hallway
I fake a smile so you won't see
But everything is tearing up inside of me

Feelings rush back to haunt my memories
What I've done is hard for even me to believe
I hope you've been able to at least sleep well at night
Because I've never been able to get past the part where I used to hold you tight

The longest shadows ever cast were from my fall onto the floor
When I used to be your boy, the person who made your life before
Held your dreams up with the guidance of a star in the dark
You're the girl I would talk about for days since our very first spark

You walk past me, so elegantly
Can you tell I can barely breathe?
You look past me with those gorgeous eyes that take my breath away
Your warm smile is gone and the affections we used to display

The longest shadows ever cast were from my fall onto the floor
When I used to be your boy, the person who made your life before
Held your dreams up with the guidance of a star in the dark
You're the girl I would talk about for days since our very first spark

You were right, she wasn't worth it
I think long and hard of why I couldn't commit
You were so perfect even with a broken heart
Your new boy had better treat you right from the start

I close my wallet and my picture of you
Maybe I'll be able to sleep a whole night through
You were all I needed to fall into ...

My eyes blur as I stare right through the piercing darkness.

Trains.

Click-clack click-clack, we speed down the track.
We lean back, our hands folded together, our eyes near, searching.
We wander.
The pull of your glowing eyes draws your knees beside my own, colliding gently.
You grin, sheepishly, a faint ember of a smile that lights up each side of your face, creating a gentle laugh.
A passenger across from us shoots a look at us, betraying distaste at our obvious sparks of attraction.
The whirring of the train and the blurring of the lights we pass are perfect.
Suspended time. In a train car. With you.

Move for me

I truly feel rested and prepared for what is ahead. My nerves have settled.
Move for me. I'll move for you.
DJ, turn the lights down, let the speakers flow their sound.
It's a sight that should always be repeated. Tangled arms, interwoven features, no chance for escape.
The stars have never shone so bright.
I hold this moment, clenched teeth erase a betraying of my own fear, substanceless.
I feel every junction of your body pulsing subsequently in time with my own.
The greatest part of your being is your ability to throw me haphazardly, into you so deeply.
Spiraling into an abyss. Locked in a dungeon. Encaged by your legs and fingers.
There's a specific beauty to your collarbones, a sharp point of contention, rising from the depths of your skin
It is you, that drives my soul, where I lose control.

This says so much more than I could ever say

watch and just go write.
perfect.

Suddenly

Suddenly I'm not sure anymore
If I want this to be what I thought anymore
Now isn't the time to think change, it's to pull myself closer
Early as this may be, the clouds are only getting darker
After it's all said and done, will I still be the one
Daring to pull away after coming this close?

This feeling

Talk to me
Talk to me, tell me what you're feeling

It's not what I'm feeling, its what I'm remembering
Spoken rhythm emphasized by the way my name rolls off your tongue
The eyes that hold, shrivel, and decompose
Bitter words, broken trust
Let's take that drink and make tonight that night
Like where we were together back in May,
Easy go, free Monday through Friday
When you were the one that laid close to me

We touched for that very first time there
The scent of a Friday night, early dusk, a little fright
Holding hands for the very first time under the streetlight
In love with this moment, swayed by this feeling
Swirling, wrapping you up, grabbing on to your heart
Pulling you down, now, there, goodbye

Do you ever feel like the one?
Drinking by the stairs under the fading sun
Drinking for two, reduced by one
Wake up, coffee and juice,
Remembering you, what happened to you
I don't know where we are going now
I don't know where we are going now
You made me feel like the one.

Let's take this.

Hold this and never let go.
"youre so foreign (L) it's cute"